The boy in the box

At last, I have my space;
My world for me to build..
Small but large enough,
My kingdom for me to build…
Miles and miles, in an arm’s length;
Untouched, untaunted-
A land of joy and peace,
With a little moor- haunted…
My dreams and hopes,
I shall hide,
In this little space;
The kingdom of a child…

No bills to pay,
No worldly worries..
No fights, no quarrels,
No blind hurries…
In here I shall live
As long as possibly can..
For a day shall come
When I walk out a man…
And then like a mule,
Burdened by all,
I shall move ahead,
Walk, run… fumble till I fall…
Blind I shall walk
In a maze unknown;
As others reap
What I had sown…
I shall watch,
Cold and numb,
As my dreams,
In piles they dump…
I shall love,
Hope and trust,
And then watch them
Trampled in the dust…

I dread that day
When I shall leave,
This little box
Where the real I live…
But for now
I won’t fret,
Coz that day ain’t here;
No… not yet…

I shall build a world
Where not a tear
Shall ever be spilled;
Where only ghosts, I fear…
Here I shall rule,
A world untaunted;
A land of joy and peace
With a little moor haunted…

-joker-

my heart

I’ll be dead
By the time you see,
There was a heart
Deep in me..
On that day
When the truth you see,
Don’t you cry
Over me…
Tears, I have shed
Enough for you
And a bit
For others too…

You may know
Or may not;
If I had my say,
You better not…
But if you knew
How I cried;
How to smile,
Hard I tried…
How very much,
If ever you knew,
You would be forced
To start anew;
Filled with love,
A new start,
Where you would see,
My little heart…

But why the hell,
Should it be,
That you will love
Just good me???
Nay my dear,
That ain’t it…
The pieces there,
Doesn’t fit…
If reasons you need,
To love me true,
I’m better of
Sans love and you…


-joker-

The fields are not as green,
the river not that clean..
the birds not that gay,
the squirrels have ceased to play...
for good or bad, i never know,
but change for sure, is part of the flow...
change is where, the old cease to be
and the new shoot turns to a tree...
who cares, if extinction we face,
if the world gets a better race...
life is now; give it the best,
forget your fears- leave the nest...
fly out there, atleast for the view,
u've just got, hours few...
and when thy wings shall wither
and thou shall join me hither,
upon the world, we shall look,
as if reading from a book...
and when i say " I should have.."
smile my dear and say " I have..."



-joker-

Blessed

Blessed are those
sacred souls,
like the teddy bears
and barbie dolls...

In all shapes
and sizes too,
with a single aim-
nothing new..

Just sit there
or lie or stand..
Loved and cared
in a growing hand..

Nothing to worry;
no joy nor pain..
In this bloody world,
nothing to gain..

Blessed are they-
the heartless few..
Sans broken bits
or worries new..

Blessed are those,
soul less souls..
those teddy bears
and barbie dolls....



-joker-

The Vow

A smile they say,
the simplest of all..
and happiness spreads,
on all that befall..
A gesture slight
with results great..
Hear my tale-
let me narrate...

I vowed to her,
my better half,
one fine day,
as I saw her laugh..
To keep her smiling
everyday..
To preserve that smile,
whatever may..
Simplest of vows,
it may seem..
But what came after
I never could dream..
To realise the fact,
it took a while;
That i had to laugh,
to make her smile..

And thus was born,
the Joker new-
just the same,
with changes few...
I used to laugh
loud and cruel;
as with the world,
I fought my duel..
I used to laugh
on foes to gain-
eyes brimming;
to hide my pain...

Now I laugh
sans a tear;
my sobbing mute,
lest she hear..
Now I laugh,
not to conquer..
but just to see
a smile on her..
Hard task though-
the hardest ever..
but on this vow,
I shall falter never..

'coz all that matters,
now and ever,
is to keep her smiling
forever and ever...

Lost

In silent sobs,
and tearless cries,
gritting teeth
and frequent sighs..
Thus I sat,
lost in thought..
to hold onto one,
hard, I fought..
For a word at least,
I searched in vain;
The long lost toy-
me, the child again..

My heart I turned
Inside out..
My feelings all
I spread out..
Enough I got,
A valley to fill,
But words,
I found nil..!!

The poet in me,
as if dead;
a shell left out,
to move ahead.
Thus I sat,
Nearing insane..
I felt nothing,
No joy nor pain…


-joker-

with you by my side,
the path ahead so clear..

with you by my side,
my goal so near...

with you by my side,
i know no fear...

with you by my side,
I wish my dear...

that time shall freeze,
right now.. right here...


-joker-